- Sweet... I am ready to be in a more stable routine again.
- Bitter... I am not ready to be running at full speed again.
- Sweet... I have some exciting new things going on in my job the rest of the year. (I learned some new counseling techniques this week that I am dying to use!)
- Bitter... I am just feeling like I caught up.
- Sweet... I am starting the week caught up. (isn't it funny how that works- both bitter and sweet)
Honestly, in many ways, I am looking forward to returning. I have a missional drive and passion for my job. This week has been a needed reprieve, but I have an urgency to get back to work, to bring encouragement to the lives around me, to be the hands and feet of the Living God to touch a broken and hurting world... one at a time. I am caught in Jesus' love for the world... and the one. This makes facing Monday look like a new opportunity to love people in my sphere of influence.
You know, it seems like walking a life with Jesus is bitter~sweet. His love and His grace is out of this world, yet He calls us to suffer with Him. That has been a theme of conversation in my home lately. What are we sacrificing for Jesus? Life at my house is pretty comfortable... do we walk with Jesus for 'us' or for the calling to reach those He brings with His love? I don't want to be misunderstood... we don't plan to run out and sell all possessions... but I am catching myself wanting... and for what?! American Christianity stinks. I honestly... passionately... want to breath Jesus in and out, more than anything. I want to be so close with Him that His words roll off my tongue as though they were my own. I want to know Him more intimately. I have a fresh need for Him. His presence... His goodness... His grace and sweet mercy... I am inviting Him to investigate my heart. He has begun to answer me in His gentle gentle way. I love Him, and yearn for more.
The Proleptic Life - the name of my blog- I fell in love with the word proleptic last year because it means something along the lines of intentionally living (doing-being-working-experiencing) in the NOW with intention of TOMORROW. This has been something I have tried to fully wrap my mind around for many many months now. Tonight it is quickened to my mind again. Reflecting on where my heart is helps prepare me for what lies ahead. Allowing Jesus to kneed my heart today for the intention of readiness as I face Monday.
9 comments:
I loved reading your thoughts...especially your passion to know Christ more!
Have a blessed week!
It was great to see you for a bit (or two). I hope your week is a fantastic one.
beautiful words, thank you for sharing!
God is at work... and it's obvious!
Loved reading this. Happy day to you!
WOW! This was a great post. Thanks for sharing your thoughts.
Happy Monday!
I love that feeling when God softens our hearts and we just breathe Him in. Sounds like you're there in this post. I'm glad we have a counselor who cares so much!
I am now checking on my comments. Thanks again for stopping by.
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Blessings.
Lori
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Lori
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