I keep feeling the need to post something, but feel as though there is nothing of excitement to post. Even though my schedule is too full, I have been finding much peace lately as I press into some new places with my relationship with God. I have begun to meet with "my older woman" as she calls herself. My God given mentor. I love her. She challenges me. She understands me. She knows me; she knows me through her prayer life, as well as by observing me in various areas of life. To be known is to be loved and to be loved is to be known.
God is teaching me through her. We recently discussed reconciliation. It is such a churchy word; I have been pondering on its meaning.
A perfect picture was yesterday when Zeke apologized to me, "Sarwy Mommy", and then ran into my chest for a hug; who wouldn't forgive him? He wanted to be right with me.
The issue for me is not that I need to reconcile with God, but to be reconciled with myself. I need to run to myself for forgiveness. I need to be right with myself, and in many ways I am not. I will not be able to extend grace to others until I extend some to myself. I am finding that the further I press into finding emotional health the more I seem to uncover. It is a bitter sweet thing, on one hand I feel so much more peace than I ever have before, yet the intense heat from pressures in my life and schedule these days seems to cook up more. Reminds me of the refining fire.
I am looking forward to standing more comfortably in front of the mirror and being more than ok with who Michelle is. I look towards giving myself grace and forgiveness.
9 comments:
You are on the right path!! It's easy to feel overwhelmed, but remember you only have to take it one day at a time! Have you read Believing God (by Beth Moore)? It is such a good one!!
Never forget you are worthy of that grace and forgiveness! It's so easy to extend it to our kids but much harder to allow ourselves to receive. Keep pushing in to God...you are awesome!
This is so good. This is exactly what I was trying to say in my last post. If I don't have someome in my life to mentor me or someone who is speaking truth into my life, then I NEED to seek it out, whether it be through a book, listening to a pastor preach on ther radio, or even just reading a blog of someone who is going deep into the things of God. If we don't make the effort to grow and seek change, we will be shallow and weak. I'm proud of you for taking the time to meet with this woman, for not being content with where you are and for your desire to walk closer with God, even when it's uncomfortable. Thanks for sharing Michelle.
Excited to see your post!
I hope you are having a great day!
Grace and forgiveness is a beautiful thing and to be cherished, I agree.
without grace and forgiveness we would all be lost!
Thanks for sharing this little corner of you!
Blessings!
Oh you are so right. Have a blessed day!
There are older women in our lives for a reason!! Take advantage of their knowledge, experience & life lessons! :)
Soon enough, we will be those older women & God will be using us in new and exciting ways!
Happy Friday!
Just wanted to say that I personally love who you are and I'm glad you are learning to love you too. We all have been told that God loves us more than we can even imagine, but it's hard to wrap our minds around that and let ourselves really, really accept it like we all need to. I look at how kids just naturally accept God's love for them no matter what's happening in their lives. We could learn from that. I'm working on trying to really see God in all the details of my life. It's exciting to be watching all the time---well, try to anyway. :) Happy mutual digging in1
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